The Perks of Being a WallflowerOkay, I think I am going to actually type something serious this time. Anyway, life is going pretty good for me. I am doing better in school. I'm getting As, Bs, and Cs. At least it's better than mostly Cs. I don't know how school use to be so easy for me. Ever since I was in elementary school I have procrastinated. I never do my homework right away when I get home. Jason is helping me with that. We mad a plan called the RedHairPlan where we both have to motivate each other so we can reach our goals. His goal is to lift weights everyday and mine is to do all of my homework. If we don't do what we're suppose to do, we have to dye our hair red. It's as easy as that. It's kinda silly in a way...but funny.

I have been reading a lot lately. The book I am reading right now is the perks of being a wallflower. I would recomend this book to any high school student. Anyway, I have to go. More later.

hello everybody!! I love you all! and I am completely messed up

I don't really want to go out with anyone right now...

I think I am going to write...

This week has been really slow, but good. It's finally Friday and I don't know what I am going to do tonight. Maybe just stay home with Ma and Pa. Who knows? Anyway, I loveCatherine. I love her site. She's everything I want to be. Everything. She's everything inside that wants to come out, but can't. Missing someone again. Falling in love with every guy I see again. Love the song, "Again" by Lenny Kravits. Boring day in the life of Angie....again.

This week has been really slow, but good. It's finally Friday and I don't know what I am going to do tonight. Maybe just stay home with Ma and Pa. Who knows? Anyway, I loveCatherine. I love her site. She's everything I want to be. Everything. She's everything inside that wants to come out, but can't. Missing someone again. Falling in love with every guy I see again. Love the song, "Again" by Lenny Kravits. Boring day in the life of Angie....again.

Well, I haven't typed in this thing in a while. I guess it doesn't interest me anymore and nobody reads it. Umm...life is doing pretty good. I broke up with Rich. We haven't won a conference basketball game yet. I have a lot of people that I know in my classes. My sister, Allison, is pregnant and just got married. Nathen just e-mailed me telling me he wants to be friends. Ryan's relationship isn't going well. John is bugging the crap out of me. He wants to go out with me, but I don't want to go out with anybody. Kristen and Pete have a good growing relationship. They've been going out for like 3-4 months now. School is going great. I'm finally doing my homework and trying to stay off the internet. I made a web site, but then I decided I don't really need it. All this stuff happened. I have a pretty boring normal life.

Well...Buddy died. My boy, my dog, part of my life. He died at the vet's. That's probably the worst place to die. He always hated going there. He should have died in his bed eating ice cream. Love ya Bud...

Well, yeah. That's really all I have to say. Ummm....I should probably say something. I'm going out with Rich. He's really nice, but just like any other guy he wants something. Hint* Anyway, Luis is being an ass again in the Library. There's this new thing with me and these guys in the library saying that I could do 5 guys at once. It's a little joke that is pretty disgusting. Everything is disgusting. Also, some other news, my dog, Buddy died. He's been in my life since I was five years old. Everyone in my family was crying exept for me. I never really cry when a death happens. I don't know why. I cry like a year later. I guess I deny too much. Anyway, life is normal. I just realized last night how many problems I have to deal with in my life. I don't have that many. My parents are great. My sisters are great. I'm....I have no idea what or who I am. I am just another girl in the family. I'm boring. I guess the thing that would make me different from my sisters is if I got straight As, stayed a virgin until I got married, go to college all the way...and not get into any trouble with my parents. Now, what fun is that? I am just going to be another boring person on the streets. a nobody. That's really what I am. Nobody. Sometimes I think I can dissapear. Just go away and no one will ever notice. That's just what I am. Who I am. I want to stay quiet. but on the other hand I want to be outgoing and actually have a life worth living. I guess I like being depressive and shit like that. Maybe I'm just that way because everything around me is depressing. But what if I be happy for once in my life and accomplish somthing good. There has to be some way I can help. I guess I probably will never get a life of my own.

The only reason I want to be in the hospital with *** is because people there are just like me and they understand. Maybe everyone needs to go there. People think I'm weird. I love being weird. That's my goal I guess. That sound out of the ordinary, but yeah. Anyway. life goes on.

I am getting better grades...sort of. I am actually trying in my classes. Biology is annoying, Spanish is confusing, Speech is nerve racking, Ancient Civ is hard, and all the rest is just kind of in it's own little mess of it's own. I'm the big mess. Anyway...life goes on.